21st Feb, i was walking towards the school, around 7.15am, i rise up my head , i saw the moon was very bright and round , then i realize how big our earth is compared to the moon, my heart was heavy because something had happen during the holiday.
On 19th Feb, around 2a.m, I felt that i have lost of my conscious, due to my lack of sleep, my friends and i where chatting. talking about girls *and many more*, blah blah blah...
Around 3a.m i called someone, * yea, i know i was stupid* , i had no idea what i am doing,seriously...i don't even have an idea of what am i doing, really lost my mind , maybe my brain was not functioning.
At 5p.m, i saw miss call , and i decided to call back, but after she picked up, i decided not to tell her because i am clear that what i am doing, i realize i am an idiot for telling her what i want to say , after all , she insists, lol, and i told her , i don't really meant it, luckily, she said no, i felt so relieved.
20th Feb, My friend called me and ask if i m serious, he spoke to me so damn seriously that i never seen he act like one before , i was busying playing my game and replied without using my brain * god damn it* then, after that , i quit the game and i think through what my friend had ask me, then i felt uneasy because i have a feeling that something is going to happen to me, but i did not put much attention to it.
Afternoon, she messaged me , cursing and swearing to me,i am very disappointed and hurt after reading those message on how she said to me....after those years....i tried to explain but nothing could not work.I had no choice but to keep myself to silent.I think and think again, i am worried that i had been back-staps by my friend, cos most of the message i have seriously had no idea what she is talking about, so i decided to call my friend, he did not reply , i smell something fishy, but then, i tried not to believed what is in my mind, because they were my friends after all , right ? i must have faith in them and i decided to trust my believes.
21th Feb, aka, Today, I was once disapointed again, because the photo i sent in to IN NEWSPAPER had not been chosen, but this maybe a learning experience for me. Around 8 a.m, once i reached the class, the "harassment" started, *loled* i knew it from the start, but i tried to ignore it, because we are all young adults, so i decided not to talk back, as long as i know that i m "innocent", i will be happen enough, i supposed. Maybe God will be my judge ? hahas think on the positive side.
Today i saw my friend and go to do some clarification with him, well, i was right to believe him , and always do.
I am not being mean or trying to be criticized to anybody, this is just my feelings, this will be my online diary.
Maybe this is a good experience for life to me yea ?
Experience is not what happens to you; it is what you do with what happens to you
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